Reset, Pratyahaara from past unfulfilled wants and Vairgya, Sannyas

Cosmos fulfills all our wants.
The issue is that we have many unconscious and conflicting wants. For eg, we want to be rich, a leader, strong, powerful, caring, loving, worry-free; but at other moments we want to be lazy, take rest, escape work, escape responsibility, criticize others, get hurt and want to hurt others, spend time idling, worrying, carry fear and distrust. At one point we wanted relationship , at another breaking them; wealth at one point, poverty at another point, health and disease. The more wants are left unrealized, less conscious you will be. You will be bored, tired, Shava (corpse). Cosmos fulfills all these and now we have a problem, because we don't want all of these to be fulfilled now. And that's why we are so confused, unclear and having a lot of conflicting thoughts.

Being intelligent, I press the Reset, Reboot button. Whatever I have realized is ok, whatever I haven't is redundant, useless to me now. I consciously drop all of it, they have no say over my present. I am Unclutched from the past, withdrawing all my energy from it, Pratyahaara. I am the present only.
This is Vairagya, the space of Viraja, Sannyas, complete completion. Consciously being in Nirvikalpa Samadhi, Unclutched, the state of Sadashiva. This is the powerful way to manifest what we want in the present, free from the desires and wish list we gave to Cosmos in the past. If your wanted reality is in tune, you are Shiva, that's all.
Gratitude!
My clicks from Swamiji's golden Satsang today.

Struggling with Integrity and Sadashiva's message

Swamiji had instructed all of us to get get up at 4 am and do Yoga, Pancha kriya, Pooja, Kirtan, Satsang... Keep integrity to Time. It is a very important component.

I decided ok and set my alarm. The alarm rang but I failed to get up, it has been going on for a week and I give various excuses and finally wake up very late missing Yoga completely.

I feel guilty on failing so many times and wondered why I cannot be integrated, why I cannot do something which I want to do.

I listened to an old Satsang explaining what is Integrity, Integrity is falling in love with your higher self. All of us have Sadashiva as our highest self, it is not given, it is hardwired already. If you say you want to be in integrity but don't know how, you are a hypocrite.

After morning ritual, I looked at Sadashiva's moorthy, I decided to sit for 5 mins. Sadashiva gave me a message that you are Sadashiva already, you are Consciousness and you are the Ultimate. Feeling guilty, low, depressed... all that is delusion. The Consciousness that is in us all is the Ultimate. I was like in heaven. Wow!

Dieties do speak like Swamiji and elevates us? Why do we pray and worship Sadashiva, Devi, Gods, Guru? Because they want us to raise us to their level. They are here only to raise us to their level. They are out of the delusion and want us also to be out of the delusion and we worship them for their passion for this cause.

Thinking about Sadashiva's message later. We are the Ultimate, we decide what we want to do. Then why this struggle? Why do we need to struggle to achieve what we want? Who is not co-operating with my decision. Is it not a strong decision or intention? Did I really decide or was it just a fanciful wish?

Could it be because I had decided to be lazy a thousand times earlier and I am enjoying it, but suddenly I decided that it is no more cute, I want to change it, so it needs some time for the new wish to be fulfilled. Cosmos does listen, our body, thoughts, mind do listen. Life does not have hypocrisy.

Have the right powerful cognition. Unfortunately, we do not bother what are the thoughts going on inside us and what we carry inside. There maybe unconscious, wrong ideas we picked up from somewhere, from someone.

What about seeing some inspirational movies. Where the hero is driven by a cause and practices everyday.

Was talking with a colleague, what you repeat for a certain number of times, you master it. It becomes part of your cognition. Be it mantras, slokas, music, art, programming. What is needed is persistence. My God! That is exactly what Swamiji said. Will persistence, not will power.

Surrendering to the sweet knowledge that came as a blessing to me today!