Manana, analyzing the Truth for the sake of internalising it

Friday, July 27, 2018

Breakthrough in working style and Micromanagement

Tracking my work time

Last week, I had to plugin a feature to an existing piece of code.
The first 2-3 days went by unproductively, upgraded couple of my software and faced issues setting up the code, building it, multiple versions...
I only remember how quickly the day ended and I didn't write a single piece of code
Enough - I started tracking what I was doing at that moment, whenever I remembered to track.
This automatically helped me to stop wasting time browsing and reading useless news
For eg. Tracking my work time

9:30 reached office, meeting

9:45 offline refactor

10:10 update

10:25 handler update password

10:56 handler update payload

11:20 handler update login attempts

Managing use cases and conditions

The next big breakthrough I had was, I started tracking the different use cases and combinations of how this feature will be used.
Drew a table and listed each condition and application states
It grew pretty big and was exhaustive
Almost, no use case or condition was left untouched
Which made the change robust and clear to all stakeholders
I found a few bugs also during this
Totally self-managed, without anyone running behind me.

I gave a demo right on time and with nothing untouched.
Thank you Swamiji!

Self Delusion

I have been deluding myself for years without awareness that:

others are better than me
others have a better sense of purpose
others are more important than me
I have to be like others
I need acceptance and appreciation from others
others are more beautiful than me
others have no confusion
others run for things, and I walk slowly

Wake up and realize that:

I am what I am
I created me for a purpose
I need not be someone else
let me be and let others be
I can have relationship with beings of other planes and dimensions, it can be friends, mother, brother...
increase the depth of my being, intensity of my being
my office and my work does not define who I am
my bank balance does not define who I am

I was going through low moods for some days - work was not going well, quarrel and expectations with family going worse, not enriching, feeling bad about myself and depressed, worried about how I will get the work done. Though I do morning pooja and feel blissful during those moments, the moment I finish it and come back to the daily world, I re-pick up incompletion from where I left it.

I didn't notice it initially, but I noticed this after a few persistent days. I was feeling Self Hatred and all impossibilities, depression. Busy from morning to night with office work, moving like a tortoise and missing morning yoga or any physical activity for that matter. Completely in non-integrity.

I noticed a lady in the Nithyananda Sangha. People were all wishing her a happy birthday, even Sri Nithyananda Swamiji wished her. She was very happy and devoted to Swamiji. But I was carrying an incompletion and felt she did not take any responsibility as per Swamiji's expectations. I realize this is simply my perception, I even don't know her more than a few minutes conversation. The point is, she was happy and active in Whatsapp sharing her happiness and bliss.

Ha, isn't that what Swamiji wants from us. To be blissful. Whatever situation I am in, however miserable, incomplete or inauthentic I may be, it is just a self torturous imagination.

Amritasya Putraha. Whatever I wanted, has happened over a period of time. Frustration is when what I wanted has changed and I am not getting what I wanted now. I earlier wished for some thing a hundred times, I got it now. Now, my order changed. This is the cause of frustration. Cosmos will give it to me within some time. Have trust in myself, Swamiji, others and the Cosmos.

Be a light unto yourself. I am the son of immortality. Everything will pass. Be cheerful and blissful. Radiate enlightenment.

Homework My Pancha Krityas

In HH Mahasannidhanam Paramahamsa Nithyananda Swamiji's Satsang message on 26 July 2018, there is no difference between me and Mahasadashiva. Homework to realize that we too do these 5 actions in our lives, the Pancha Krityas, 5 kinds of actions that Mashasdashiva does that I too do in my life:

Creation/Srishti

I write code and create software applications
I cultivate plants
I make crafts and drawings
I make a dish when I cook food
I create by writing posts, be it Facebook or Whatsapp or mails or blogs

Sustenance/Maintenance/Stithi

I maintain by body by eating right food, diet, exercise, sleep, medicines
I maintain healthy mind by reading, listening, watching right movies, carrying right thoughts
I maintain by family, friends and relationships by carrying light and cheerful talks
I maintain my career by doing the necessary actions
I maintain wealth by investing and managing spending

Destruction/Rejuventation/Samhara

I stopped habit of eating non-veg food because it harms me
I stop cherishing anger, hatred towards anyone as it hurts me
I stopped getting depressed and be in an irritated mood in family
I stop bad habits of unhealthy sleeping, boredom, tiredness
I also stop good things in me, be it loving others or enriching or causing

Delusion

I carry the delusion of self-doubt and that I am not manifesting anything I want
Delusion that I am not able to manifest powers
I delude others by showing that I am an intelligent, smart, calm, peaceful person
I delude others about my true identity
I avoid talking about controversial topics and about my personal beliefs to my friends
When I don't get up early morning to do yoga, I delude myself that I need sleep or I can't function

Liberation

I liberate myself by listening to Swamiji and getting more confident in myself
I was under the delusion that Kalpataru (wish fulfilling tree) is not working for me or that I am not able to manifest what I want. But in fact, an Acharya made me realize that I did manifest certain things I wanted, which were really tough for me. The mistake was I beat myself by comparing with others - others run and achieve many things in life, whereas I don't see myself running and I wonder whats wrong with me. I have the strength in me to achieve what I want when I really want it. This was such a big liberation and put a big hole in my self-doubt.
I help my kids understand and learn better
I help my wife and family cheer up and come to a better mood by sharing fun and laughter

Wow, so how I exist and Mahasadashiva exists are not qualitatively different, though I feel quantitative difference. It is after all ME who decides what to create, sustain, destroy, delude and liberate.

Now I remember, I too mentioned to my wife that I create my code or my wife creates dishes or my kid creates a drawing or painting. We are given the powers of God already. It is not some god sitting somewhere who decides what I will do.

Nithyanandam.

No Difference between You and Mahasdashiva

My key takeaways from HH Mahasannidanam Paramahamsa Nithyananda Swamiji's Satsang message dated 26 July 2018.

Why am I speaking about the aspects of Mahasadashiva
Maturity of INNER SPACE is not growth or process it is ALWAYS BIG BANG.
Man can never grow spiritually. He can only have a breakthrough and become God.
I am introducing thias powerful component of Jnanapada - the knowledge.
I am introducing this science so that your inner space will recognize your reality.
There is no QUALITATIVE difference between you and Mahadeva.
If you know in your depth, in your deepest cognition: you are manifesting, you are sustaining,
you are rejuvenating, you are deluding and you are liberating.
Understand, the moment you realize even on a small scale You operate, then it is very easy for me to give you the experience there is no QUALITATIVE difference between YOU and SADASHIVA, there is only QUANTATATIVE, that is too small.
All quantitative difference is delusion! When I use this word ‘ALL’ I mean A-L-L. Take this law and apply it anywhere. All quantitative difference is delusion!
The quality, Tejas, is the existential reality.
The quantity of the heat radiated by the sun or the candle has no difference.
The heat by the sun and the heat by the candle is only difference for you, who is too insignificant.
The more quantitative differences become irrelevant to your existence the more you are becoming matured and greater and bigger.
So any quantitative difference is experienced by the deluded insignificant existence. Not by the source or by the larger beings.
QUANTITATIVE DIFFERENCES LOOSING POWER OVER YOUR INNER SPACE IS APARIGRAHA!
Whether its clay or a lump of Gold, its different only for a man who is not yet matured in his life.
For a man who is matured in his life, both doesn’t make any difference.
Because the quantitative differences what is the value of a clay, what is the value of the gold DOES NOT have any RELEVANCE for his EXISTENCE!
All I need to do to you now, to give you a breakthrough ‘You and Sadashiva, You and Mahadeva, you and Parashiva’
When I am using all these words, it all means the same. Mahasadashiva, Sadashiva, Parashiva, Mahadeva, Shiva all these words mean the same Parashiva, Parashiva Parampara. That one ULTIMATE existence.
The idea you carry about you, God and Universe is the software you carrying. The software you carry decides the quality of life and the powers you will manifest.
The powerful cognition, the right software you need to carry inside, you need to download inside its free.
Password you know : Om Nithyananda Nahasadashivoham! Its a free download software! Universal software.
All powers are inner software.
It’s like if you download the facebook app you can operate facebook in your ipad, if you download twitter, you can operate twitter.
Same way, each of these powers are nothing but ‘APPS OF CONSCIOUSNESS’.
You just need to download a few understandings in your system, a few cognitions, and you begin manifesting powers!
It was really this easy in original Bharat!
Invasion of India into Bharat destroyed Bharat!
Bharat is from Kailasha, the culture, civilization of Mahasadashiva.
Bharat is consciousness. Bharat lives in every one of your hearts, wherever you may be. Its not dependent on any place, its dependent on the SPACE you carry!
I don’t even want to say ‘operates’, i should say the way he exists!
Internalize that, you will see how YOU EXIST and how HE EXISTS are QUALITATIVELY one and the SAME. That is the FIRST REALIZATION you need to have.
Once you start manifesting the powers, you will realize there is no difference quantitatively also!
Once you realize there is no qualitative difference, quantitative difference is only a question of time, nothing else. Its only a question of getting more matured, nothing else.
If you can make the first one crore, that first will make the second, third crore.
Only thing I found how difficult it has become because you all have become distanced from this great science. You all have stopped believing it is possible.
1) He exists much more INTENSELY than you exist.
2) You are only a REFLECTION of his existence.
If at all you have some practical question, you have a difficulty, it may only be perceived as a quantitative difference - not qualitative!

He also manifests, you also manifest.
He also sustains, you also sustain.
He also destroys, you also destroy
He also deludes, you also delude
He also liberates, you also liberate.

You may think, what liberation I am doing? If you give medicine to one sick person and that person gets out of the disease you have liberated him from the disease!
Do this simple homework: What all you manifest in your life everyday, what all you sustain, what all you destroy, what all you are deluded about, or put others in delusion. Even the way you show your inner image and outer image is putting others in delusion. And whatever you feel you are liberating. Just study little bit.
Essence of today's Satsang. There is no qualitative difference in you and Mahasadashiva. May this powerful cognition start manifesting in you as powers!

Thursday, July 26, 2018

V-Hole Grey Hole and Whole

My key takeaways from HH Mahasannidanam Paramahamsa Nithyananda Swamiji's Satsang message dated 23 July 2018.

Knowledge makes life better
There are 5 aspects or actions of Mahasadashiva Parashiva

Creation - Shristi
Maintenance/Sustenance - Sthithi
Destruction/Rejuvenation - Samhara
Delusion - Tirobhava
Liberation - Anugraha

In the Cosmos, creation can be grasped through Big Bang and destruction through Black Hole.
Swamiji is offering 3 new words to humanity.
There are three more happenings: V-Hole (Vishnu Hole) which is an expression of Maintenance, Grey Hole an expression of Delusion and Whole for Liberation
V-Hole is the energy which is responsible for things to exist as they exist, as long as they need to exist
Grey Hole - where things are not as you perceive them to be, not as you think them to be, not as you imagine them to be. When a doubt or a disturbance is in your inner space, you will doubt everything. You will not see, perceive things as they are, as they exist. I call this space as a Grey Hole.
Grey Hole/Delusion is not a punishment, it is a LADDER for conscious beings to move from where they are, to where they should be!
The fifth one, “Whole”, that is Anugraha, Liberation where you become Whole or you realized your space of whole, Poorna.
If we start realizing V-Hole, Grey Hole, Whole; these phenomena, these happenings - not only our understandings about the Universe, but our understanding about our self, clarity about why we exist, what exactly is the purpose of our existence, all these can be taken to the next level.
Grey Hole is much worser than Black Hole because in Black Hole you are at least not stuck. You are moving to the next. But in Grey Hole, you are stuck! You are just stuck! That’s the worst space to exist.
Always DECIDE RIGHT, not pleasant. If you are not able to decide right, at least take some decision and start moving. DON’T BE STUCK! That is why sometimes I tell you, deciding something is much better than NON DECISIVENESS.
Knowing what Swamiji is talking is right, but I don't know how to make it happen - Tirbobhava.
And by listening, immediately if you start manifesting powers and catching the glimpse of what I am sharing, you’re in the space of Whole, Anugraha, Liberation.
PRAYER is the way to move from Grey Hole to Whole
Prayer is a Solution for you to get out of Tirbobhava.

Guru Poornima Action Items

My key takeaways from HH Mahasannidanam Paramahamsa Nithyananda Swamiji's Satsang message on Guru Poornima dated 27 July 2018.

I don't want to give you words on this auspicious day of Guru Poornima, I want to give you 3 action items.
Consumption is Contribution in Power manifestation.

Watch the upcoming daily Satsangs during this Chaturmaya (4 months) till Navaratri Vijayadasami. They will help you manifest powers to the next level. (Online free live telecast on http://nithyananda.tv/tv/ at 8am IST)
Drop silly, small patterns in your life to break the status quo, to free you from wherever you are stuck. Don't think it is not for me. Be courageous.
Make time and watch these Satsangs on YouTube continuously and imbibe them - 11 dimensions of the Universe, 25 states of Consciousness, 5 aspects of Mahasadashiva from last Sadashivoham and Mahasadashivoham programs, eg

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I took leave this day and, looked back at this week's Satsang notes and wrote these blog posts to imbibe them. Next, listen to these golden words. Downloaded them to my mobile.