"Today's Facebook status and subject for Vaakyartha Sadas - Manifesting powers is Sadashivatva, Decision fatigue is Chandaallathva, C-h-a-n-d-a-a-l-l-a-t-h-v-a"
"Fatigue Decision or Decision Fatigue – means fatigue which happens to you by making decisions."
I am so busy all the day...
morning struggling to get up, wondering whether to do yoga or should I sleep or am I tired, did I sleep well last night; toss around in bed till the last moment...
then suddenly wake up, Oh! there is a demo today, there is some important work; its 7 am, need to wake up my kids and tell them to go to school, or iron the clothes...
during developing, what variable name to give, how to format code.... all small things...
whether to do a work or not, thinking whether something needs to be done or not...
like Swamiji says whether to piss on this post or the other.... Hahaha
And there is this feeling of tiredness, unfulfillment...
But what have I really done? Keeping on moving around, drinking 3-4 teas or hot water, talking, reading the same news again and again, thinking the same thing again and again, reading some random sites or whatever interests me at the moment, postponing the work many times or at times worrying that it is very important and struggling with it.
I cheat others with this busy, doing some work, stuck with something... notion. But the issue is me cheating myself.
Swamiji says its arrogance, because I need to show I am doing something worthy. But cheating ourselves is losing Life, in utter confusion, don't know what to do, where I am heading, which direction...
But then how do people who own and run multi-billion dollar and international businesses live. They also have everything. Then why am I feeling this itself is too much. Its just decision fatigue or Thought Pornography.
Society, the corporate structure... all these put us in this delusion, we are so busy, we are very important, taking decisions make us tired.
"Decision fatigue people will pamper you, but rob your life, you will lose life. I may be LOUD conch and wake up call, early morning 4.30, but I will give you life. Wake up from this stupidity of concept called decision fatigue."
So I need to start taking up more work, multiple parallel projects, we can do multiple things and micro-manage all them. And still we should feel we haven't done anything. Its just playing, loitering, enjoying, having fun.
Everything else is just blown up arrogance.
Which are the areas I feel bored and tired? What is stopping me from exploring multiple projects?
Its a cool idea to browse and read useless news all day long, taking a long painful time just to decide a few things and do little work.
But Swamiji says its cheating myself and robbing my life. Utter confusion, doing nothing productive, feeling unfulfilled and unsatisfied. I am sure it will lead to tremendous pain and suffering. I need to wake up from this deep slumber, fatigue.
Decision Fatigue is the lowest level of people. Chandaalla means such a low level person.
"Fatigue decision people’s prana is dangerous to breathe - kandumuttu kenduumuttu – don’t even see them, it will be disaster for you. "
Take triple digit decisions and know that it is not leading to tiredness.
Micromanage.
Focus, not just random.
Do, accomplish things.
And less thinking.
ACTIVISM... thats the mantra.
Swamiji says he is more of a DOING person, not just gaining much knowledge, or thinking Bhakti; but Doing - teaching, coaching, building temples, cooking, agamas, training people, starting as many projects possible, manifesting SadaShiva every moment.
I started with this personal blog to remnind, chew these ideas, Manana. This is real spirituality, Guru who pushes people to more and more activism, doing a lot, doing a lot, and still feeling we haven't done anything.
I remember, Swamiji used to visit many places for Pada Puja, a very packed schedule all around Tamil Nadu and Bangalore. But when people look at him, they are amazed, How he is fresh, like soft, fresh "Halwa pazham".
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